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Just a small update.
First off, I want to say thank you to all the support and lovely comments I got on my last journal. I assure you, I read them all and took them all to heart! But I'm really sorry for not replying to them all. Forgive me!
I am doing 1,000X better now. I went up to see my boyfriend during Christmas and it really helped clear the air on a lot of things. We worked a lot of things out, and I know we are stronger now more than ever because of it. Not everything with everyone was fixed, but I feel reassured and refreshed and I look forward to the future now. I honestly don't know what happened to me for those past few months, but I know that for that time I was not myself at all. So many things were just piling up and I just went downhill so quickly and did things I never thought I would do. I know now that I will never do those things again or allow myself to get that upset.
I feel like I may try and upload something here for you guys soon! Just gotta get some ideas haha, but I am back to drawing. :3 So maybe I will post something!
Thank you guys again for being awesome.
First off, I want to say thank you to all the support and lovely comments I got on my last journal. I assure you, I read them all and took them all to heart! But I'm really sorry for not replying to them all. Forgive me!
I am doing 1,000X better now. I went up to see my boyfriend during Christmas and it really helped clear the air on a lot of things. We worked a lot of things out, and I know we are stronger now more than ever because of it. Not everything with everyone was fixed, but I feel reassured and refreshed and I look forward to the future now. I honestly don't know what happened to me for those past few months, but I know that for that time I was not myself at all. So many things were just piling up and I just went downhill so quickly and did things I never thought I would do. I know now that I will never do those things again or allow myself to get that upset.
I feel like I may try and upload something here for you guys soon! Just gotta get some ideas haha, but I am back to drawing. :3 So maybe I will post something!
Thank you guys again for being awesome.
I'm sorry!
If I had a dollar for everytime I suddenly became inactive on this account..
Not sure how many of you still care for my work, or for me in general since I have been gone for so long, but I wanted to sincerely apologize to my watchers, as well as the friends I had here that I basically screwed over. :/ I think about it every now and then and can't help but feel bad.
I know, it's just weird ZADR art in my gallery, hours of effort pouring over something that isn't even mine. But I feel bad... I did have fun here for a while and I just kind of gave it all up for no reason. It was my place to come to and escape what crap I had going on.
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Streaming-OFFLINE
Thank you all for joining! It was quite fun.
Last night, !Invader-Neo (https://www.deviantart.com/invader-neo) and I wrote the 18th chapter of "IB"! However, it needs a thumbnail image so I am working on that now. :3 I am going to stream it for fun. If no one shows up I'll end it, but if you want to come then please feel free! If you guys want, I can turn on my mic, but for now I am just going to listen to music. c:
http://www.livestream.com/renrencam
Rant
I need to rant and I don't want to talk to anyone directly, so I will post here. I am not doing this for pity, so I ask that no one feel pity.
It seems ever since August, I have done nothing but disappoint people (particularly two in general). I have done things I deeply regret and things that have made me hate myself more and more. I am honestly so disgusted with myself that I refuse to look in a mirror because I just feel like punching the reflection. I hate pretty much everything about myself and I have never felt this way until now.
I have lied to people I care about. Only to protect them from the truth because I felt it was best that t
Rambling
Very bored, kinda lonely... So I thought I would just rant since I really have nothing to do and my inspiration for drawing has kind of faded for the time being.
I tried to draw some Invader Zim art for you guys, but I had a bit of trouble again coming up with something original and interesting. So sorry, no Zim art still and I doubt any of you care to see my own original work so I will just keep that to myself.
Well, I finally have a job! I am working the after school program at my mom's school she works at. I get paid $11.48 an hour to watch kids so that's not a bad gig I think! Of course, it can be a bit challenging at times, but it teac
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